Making sentences from verbs

I have been having extreme writers block lately, and so I thought I would try something new. I went through and wrote down verbs that I associated with myself and then I had the idea that I would go through and write sentences about how I was feeling with those verbs...

Here's what I came up with...

Lately all I’ve wanted to do is sleep

I eat too much, and that causes me to have the urge to purge

A lot of things have been going wrong lately and I have been crying so hard

Sometimes I even cry myself to sleep

Sometimes I even cry in class

Sophie is a very loving and she keeps me safe though

I am hurting because of the loss of a friend

Sometimes I just need to bleed to know I’m still alive

I like to cling to people because if I don’t everyone always leaves me

Which my clinginess could definitely affect the reasons why they leave

I hate when something happens, but it doesn’t just break your heart, it breaks your soul too

It’s hard to deal with all these emotions surrounding my self-harm impulses

I dream of a life without self-harm, but I know it will never come

I feel like no matter what I do, it’s never good enough

I fight against the demons in my mind, but they are always there, they don’t go away

I wish I could fly away from all of this

I wish I could use these experiences to grow as a person

And learn not only to do my coping skills when I’m triggered but ACTUALLY do them

A lot of the times though, I don’t WANT to do my coping skills

It’s a mistake when I give in to the demons

I don’t know if I will overcome this

But there are a lot of people who I have to prove wrong

Sometimes I just want to quit with recovery because it was easier being sick

Shine bright like a diamond, is what my grandma always says to me

Sing it for the world, don’t ever shut your mouth, no matter how hard they are trying to silence you

I want to slit my wrists (just a thought, don’t freak out)

In my life I try to stand, but lately every time I try to stand, something keeps knocking me down

Maybe one day I will thrive

This illness controls you

I have been withdrawing from everyone

I fall down all the time, when I try to get up, I get shaky legs and then I’m on the ground again

I have been starting to forget things, some things I want to forget but others I don’t want to forget

I feel depressed, so very depressed

I depend on people to show me how much I am worth

I have been destroying my life for so long now, that sometimes I don’t even want to get better

It would be amazing to eliminate all of these thoughts, but that is never going to happen

Maybe someday all of these bad feelings will be able to be erased

My friend and I made a deal to stay safe for each other for one week

This week has been dreadful without my negative coping skills

I think that what I do to myself could be considered taboo but I don’t care

I feel like a very terrible person for hurting myself

Sometimes I feel so numb that it feels the only way I can stay alive is to show myself

And I show myself that I’m still alive by bleeding

By bleeding, bleeding, bleeding

And I know that it is unpleasant for people to hear

You probably think I’m insane going through this passage

Hell, maybe I am a little insane

I don’t understand how self-harm it hurts other people though

I’m not cutting them; I’m not making them binge

It’s my body why should anyone care?

My arms are grotesque, hideous and revolting

My arms are the product of a mind that is only focused on one thing: my destruction

I can’t even explain how they look

I am burned out with all of the work that my classes are right now

I completed five essays and have one left

I also took a quiz, which I didn’t do very well

I did all of that on top of feeling super duper depressed

I have gone five days without cutting this week and if I make it to 7, my friend has a present for me and I the same for her

Honestly, I know I can stop, but do I want to?